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The Beginning of the End.

Due to hitting a wall and knowing that there isn't anything left we can do, it has been decided - between Mom, my brother, the doctors, and myself - that hospice is the best option.

We began comfort care for her last night. Signing the DNR papers was the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It has been ruled that she isn't fully cognizant, so the final things have come down to Jess and I to decide. She become lucid every once in a great while and understands fully where she is and the path that she is headed, but then (almost blissfully) slips back into loopiness.

I'm very thankful I'm off the next two days, and very sad that school starts on Monday. Dr. Tee highly suggests I think of taking a quarter off, but I just got my full financial aid back. Maybe I'll just not try to desperately get into my A&P class, and instead find either one two credit course or two one credit courses to round out my schedule with my NAC training in order to give me the full time status that I need. I had already turned in my notice at work that I'm only available three days a week.

Thank you all for your kind words and support through this so far. If anyone would like to visit her, she is at Southwest until a hospice bed is found for her.

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ignusfaatus
Dec. 31st, 2010 03:35 pm (UTC)
sorry love. Thank goodness she has you
drocera
Dec. 31st, 2010 03:56 pm (UTC)
Aww. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. Such a tough thing - I know, had to do it with my Grandmother.

Many hugs to you and your family.
darker_one
Dec. 31st, 2010 04:42 pm (UTC)
So sorry to hear you are going through this.
jecook
Dec. 31st, 2010 05:09 pm (UTC)
*sends fluffy kitty huggles*
randwulf
Dec. 31st, 2010 07:11 pm (UTC)
Sorry to hear this. It can't be easy.

*hugs ya*
baryon
Dec. 31st, 2010 07:44 pm (UTC)
*Big hugs*

I hope she will at least be as comfortable as possible.
gaeba
Dec. 31st, 2010 08:57 pm (UTC)
::big hugs::

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Don't forget to take some time for self-care in the coming months - it's really easy to get burnt out.

Much love coming your way!
ornotmajestic
Dec. 31st, 2010 09:25 pm (UTC)
*big hugs*

So sorry. This is never easy. :( My thoughts and prayers are with you.
sugarblind
Dec. 31st, 2010 09:40 pm (UTC)
Signing the DNR for my mom was the hardest thing I'd ever done, too. Signing the order to take her off of life support: equally hard.

My sympathies are with you, Aub. Good luck. <3
view_from_here
Dec. 31st, 2010 09:46 pm (UTC)
You seem to be handling this much better than I would be. But would also want to stay in school as a means to stay busy when there really isn't much else that I could do.
newroticgirl
Jan. 1st, 2011 05:59 am (UTC)
Ah, honey. I'm sorry. If you need help/company/foods/anything, please say something.
dharawal
Jan. 1st, 2011 12:24 pm (UTC)
Many many hugs, I know it's hard but you truly are doing the very best thing for your Mum, you and your brother will be in my thoughts.

aintesduck
Jan. 1st, 2011 03:34 pm (UTC)
I'm really sorry. I know personally what a hard decision that is to have to make, but sometimes it's something that needs to be done. I hope everything goes as well as it can, for all of you.
leighblack
Jan. 1st, 2011 09:58 pm (UTC)
la_cowntessa
Jan. 5th, 2011 04:29 am (UTC)
*hugs*
papiergeest
Jan. 7th, 2011 03:26 am (UTC)
Aw, I am so sorry...my thoughts are with you.
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