the end.. or the beginning..

Apr. 17th, 2003 at 12:44 AM

as i continue on with my simpering...

tonight was a night of finalities.

it will be the last night i will EVER sleep in this bed.

it will be the last night i will EVER sleep in this apartment.

it was the last time that i will EVER get mail from that p.o. box.

it will be the last night in who knows how long, that i will drive home from chris and brians after staying there entirely too long for my own good, if ever again.

it will be the last night in who knows how long, that i will have been in tempe, if i am ever to return.

it will have been the last time that things will be this way ever again. even should i return six months, six years from now, it will have been time spent away from my friends here, all of us growing in different directions apart from each other.

sure, if i ever move back to arizona, i will prolly hang out with a lot of the same people, should they still be here.

but it will NEVER be the same.

and this saddens me.

Current Mood: sad
Current Music:Blue Cartoon - The Center of the Universe

Comments

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nothinganything

Apr. 17th, 2003 01:18 am (UTC)

...everybody's favorite nervous fidget

The last night you EVER absent-mindedly shear sheep while watching "Mitchell".

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:38 pm (UTC)

Re: ...everybody's favorite nervous fidget

i will never forget that. that rocked. hilarity ensued.

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aubkabob

Jun. 13th, 2003 02:36 pm (UTC)

Re: ...everybody's favorite nervous fidget

lol - and still, months later when i finally get this in my inbox, i still had thee best flipping time that night.

just think how the world must cower at our feet, should we ever be able to combine forces IN PERSON?!?

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brynna

Apr. 17th, 2003 08:31 am (UTC)

*hugs you*

Oh, before I forget (and I hope you get this...I'll email it to you as well, just in case) -- my phone # is 818.434.6505 -- call me about this whole LA thing, I really want to see you, even if just for a couple hours. :)

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:38 pm (UTC)

i'm sorry that i lost your number *sadness*

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:38 pm (UTC)

amen to that, sister.

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cherub_bunny

Apr. 17th, 2003 09:03 am (UTC)

i'm sorry. but don't worry, it will get better. :)

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:39 pm (UTC)

here's to new beginnings!

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cherub_bunny

Apr. 28th, 2003 02:51 pm (UTC)

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cheers! :)

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iicarrii

Apr. 17th, 2003 09:25 am (UTC)

-hug-
And just to think that youll get away from me! :( I dont have my car today it had to go in for its service...God damn it!

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:39 pm (UTC)

sorry to hear about your car, once again! *gigantos hugs*

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lordrexfear

Apr. 17th, 2003 09:38 am (UTC)

I wish you all the luck in the world. I am sure everything will work out for the best in the end. It's just another experience for you in this thing called life.

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:40 pm (UTC)

yes.

life is full of beginnings and endings...

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stillthinking

Apr. 17th, 2003 10:23 am (UTC)

*hugs*... if you drive through Sacramento, call me.. and I wish you the best.. it will all be good...

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:40 pm (UTC)

i did drive through sac, but i had left all my numbers behind :(

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silverwraith

Apr. 17th, 2003 05:21 pm (UTC)

change is hard...I wish you good luck! :)

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aubkabob

Apr. 25th, 2003 04:41 pm (UTC)

thanks so much.

and, although it's hard, it helps us to grow into something new.

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silverwraith

Apr. 25th, 2003 09:14 pm (UTC)

ah, late-night half-asleep bemoanings. :)

yeah, it does. *sigh* just wish that growing wasn't often so painful. :P

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aubkabob

Apr. 26th, 2003 01:14 pm (UTC)

Re: ah, late-night half-asleep bemoanings. :)

i completely agree. course, in the future, after all the 'growings' from whatever experience in life is long gone, we can certainly look back and see how much they helped us to grow, and how different we are because of it.

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silverwraith

Apr. 26th, 2003 02:29 pm (UTC)

Re: ah, late-night half-asleep bemoanings. :)

yeah, true. at least I'm overall happier with how I am now, as compared to where I was years ago. I guess it's a good thing that we all have growing pains. but that doesn't make them any easier, right? heh.

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aubkabob

Apr. 28th, 2003 10:44 pm (UTC)

Re: ah, late-night half-asleep bemoanings. :)

and that's truly wonderful that you can look back at your past and see all the positives that came from all the negatives at the time :) i think that's where the true growth comes from :)

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iicarrii

Apr. 25th, 2003 05:05 pm (UTC)

Thanks...with lots of pills and liquor Ive been able to cope. ;)

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