tonight was a night of finalities.
it will be the last night i will EVER sleep in this bed.
it will be the last night i will EVER sleep in this apartment.
it was the last time that i will EVER get mail from that p.o. box.
it will be the last night in who knows how long, that i will drive home from chris and brians after staying there entirely too long for my own good, if ever again.
it will be the last night in who knows how long, that i will have been in tempe, if i am ever to return.
it will have been the last time that things will be this way ever again. even should i return six months, six years from now, it will have been time spent away from my friends here, all of us growing in different directions apart from each other.
sure, if i ever move back to arizona, i will prolly hang out with a lot of the same people, should they still be here.
but it will NEVER be the same.
and this saddens me.