March 29th, 2003

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i'm doin alright...

weird dreams last night, involving a forest... and an older man with a wig, like 45 years old or so, that was on vacation, married, but i thought i had feelings for him, but when he left to go back to his wife, i had realized that it was an aquaintance that i sparred with occasionally, the Knight of the Mountain King, that I had been in love with all the time. So, one night, when the gracious Knight (who for some reason was wearing something like a court jester's outfit mixed with the pope's?!?) was making us dinner, which was some weird concoction of fried nuts, berries, and gummy bears, i kissed him. then we began planning our wedding, months later. he was the same cynical, depressive man that i had fallen in love with, but he was MINE.


so. i'm trying to become motivated to do things around the house today. i dunno if i want to deal with people. at least, the intense feeling of overwhelming panic that i had last night is gone, leaving a weird... emptiness, i guess.

i need caffeine. *runs off to make some earl grey tea*

what are all of your plans for the weekend?!?
  • Current Music
    Better than Ezra - Tom Collins
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nice to know that my MOTHER was in the HOSPITAL all day yesterday, and i'm JUST finding out about this?!?!?

um, brosely, when something like that comes up, PLEASE put that as the FIRST note in your post instead of "dreams dreams... ladee da, i'm having a weird day. paragraph paragraph... oh. and my mom woke up sick and throwing up this morning and in the worst pain of her life and left for the hospital hours ago, and i haven't heard anything. welp. i'm off to work."

*strangles one little brother*
  • Current Music
    Nickel Creek - Old Coffee on the Dashboard
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Swan song to the ICE Gallery

was listening to this, and found it SO fitting:

I Wanna Thank You (by Sloan)

You had the best of intentions now
But the bad inventions let us down
And now it's gone
Who really cares if we ever find a home
Yeah yeah

I wanna thank you
Thank you for all the times we had
Too bad there's no more money
Next part ain't so funny
Everybody's leaving
It seems to be the season
When your thoughts return to home
Can't you see that I'd rather be alone

Goodbye, so long
See you sometime

Let me know if you're back this way again
Sing a song that reminds us of our friends
Ba ba ba...

I wanna thank you
You know all those times don't seem so bad
We live in a reflection
Eliminate detection
As well as rhyme or reason
We always aim to please them
And my thoughts begin to roam
Still I think I'd rather be alone

Goodbye, so long
See you sometime


and i was talking with a couple of people about this, so i thought i would post it again:

by Bread:

And Aubrey was her name,
A not so very ordinary girl or name.
But who's to blame?
For a love that wouldn't bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune.
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing,
Take away the words that rhyme it doesn't mean a thing.

And Aubrey was her name.
We tripped the light and danced together to the moon,
But where was June?
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Catching all the words, but then the meaning going past,

But God I miss the girl,
And I'd go a thousand times around the world just to be
Closer to her than to me.

And Aubrey was her name,
I never knew her, but I loved her just the same,
I loved her name.
Wish that I had found the way
And the reasons that would make her stay.
I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest.
If I can't have the one I want, I'll do without the best.

But how I miss the girl
And I'd go a million times around the world just to say
She had been mine for a day.
  • Current Music
    Great Big Sea - Excursion Around the Bay (live)
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one final note before i jet off...

i about peed my pants when i accidentally found Sloan's Between the Bridges on a blank tape.

i hadn't replaced the cd since my jeep was broken into and all my cd's stolen over a year ago. nor have i replaced Navy Blues. nor have i replaced my fountains of wayne, nor my jason falkner - Author Unknown, as sacreligious as it may seem.

i have not heard this freaking cd since over a year ago.


Blue is the colour of baby's ride
And I wish that it would take me away
And if those black wheels are pointed uptown baby
I know what they're bound say
C'mon girl

Don't you believe a word,

She kept her head close to her heart
Waiting for someone worth writing
Everybody's read for the part
She took centre stage and proclaimed
"Can't you see that I've been lost so long?!?"

Pray for inspiration from guiding lights
And name a new planet each day
You said "The only good thing about the weekend, baby
Is that Monday's two days away"
C'mon boy

*does the happiest dance ever back into the bathroom to pop her eyes in*
  • Current Music
    Sloan - Don't You Believe a Word