August 11th, 2003

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- Nickel Creek, as i'm discovering, is truly an amazing experience, when listened to through headphones. I mean, you just find so many new qualities to songs that you've heard a zillion times. it's taken my appreciation for their music to a whole new height. I'm just hoping that somehow, someway, I'll be able to go to their show at the end of this month ;_;

- i had planned on getting up at 11, but i was sooooo solidly asleep, i didn't stir until almost 3. again. i guess that all the sleep i've been getting lately is making up for all that i lost over the last month's insomnia. although it took me over an hour to get to sleep last night, it didn't bother me, because i knew that once i was out, i was OUT.

- the kittens have opened their eyes! maybe i'll show them on my brother's webcam later. i picked up one that is solid steel grey, and he looks like an angry, dirty polar bear. very grumpy! :D i wish jess had a better camera to take digi pics with!

- no sex dreams last night, although i DID kiss Michael Weatherly. a big improvement over Mr. Black. and what an emotional kiss it was *swoon* I think i dreamed of him, cuz i saw him on Ally McBeal yesterday.
  • Current Music
    Nickel Creek - Reasons Why (live Austin City Limits)
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Cross posted in nitetime_expres

Seeing something on the news, it jolted a memory of my dream...

In my dreams, 99.9% of the time, whenever i have a dream involving water, it's either that i'm terrified of getting wet, i don't want to deal with getting wet (even if it's just my feet), or i turn the water into snow or ice to keep it from hurting me.

water in dreams signifies emotion. what form the water takes is different aspects of that emotion. i.e. turbulent ocean usually means massively upset. drowning can mean being overwhelmed by your emotions, etc. snow/ice is the absence of emotion, meaning that in dreams, i have a tendency to switch off or avoid my emotions by not getting wet or changing it to snow, so that it floats harmlessly around me.

that being said... in my dream last night, i realized i was out in the middle of the ocean, an ocean that wasn't calm. i had an immediate sense of panic, before i realized that i was completely surrounded by whales. i had thought they were dolphins at first, because they were smaller than i see normal whales as being, but because of the way their tails were, and because they were pitch black, i knew they where whales. the whales were taking me away from where i knew the shoreline to be, but for some reason, i knew that as long as i was with them, that nothing would ever happen to me. i wouldn't drown, and although i don't feel like it's the safest route for me, it's going to work out in the long run. so i gave myself over to the whales, and allowed them to carry me away from shore, to where i needed to be. i remember the love eminating from the whales, and how completely safe i felt, safer than i have ever felt in my life.

what i saw on the news is what brought back the dream.. a black whale had washed up on shore, and they had zillions of people out there, trying to carry it to safety, leading it away from the shore. it was a lot smaller than whales normally are, or what i take them to be, although not as small as in my dream (my whales had been only about twice the size of a dolphin).

it died.

i feel like i need to cry.

the end of the news report had them carting the poor whale's carcass off on the back of a truck, to be taken to some place inland.

don't you think that a whale would want to be buried out to sea, and not in a freaking FOREST?!?
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    sad sad