August 22nd, 2005


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why the hell not?

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a bit drunker than i feel i should be. SO in the mood for a cuddle buddy. and water. lots of water. and a cuddle buddy. seems the Hideaway is FAR better for sunday night karaoke than mojo's. holy COW, they have every song EVAR, including stuff by:

the murmurs
marvelous 3
our lady peace
white stripes
stroke 9 (like four songs!)

crap. i'm too sleepy to remember others. but boy, howdee, jessie, when i remember, i shall SO tell you. cuz i know YOU will care.

i will so miss pattie when she goes back to basic training.

i'm excited because i'm wearing a bra i haven't fit in in YEARS. i call it my 'disco bra' because it's shiny. i have a dress that matches it. ha ha. i need to really invest in new underwear. weight change is effecting it. it maaaay be a nice thing to not have underwear i can pull up to my nose and house a small family of four in.

i may wake up tomorrow and delete this. PAY NO ATTENTION TO THE MAN BEHIND THE CURTAIN!


now my kinky neck and i shall go to bed to innocently slumber.

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dinking around on my my space out of boredom. maybe i'll start updating that more, so that i don't post tooooooooooooo much here, for when i have those really inane posts that i feel massively compelled to post, though i know that no one gives a hoot. i had also gone through and added everyone to my reading list, though i lost track somewhere. it says that i only have 52 of my 61 friends, and i'm ENTIRELY too lazy to figure it out. so if i'm not your reader, lemme know. and feel free to add me so that i don't feel pathetic ;)

hee hee, andrea's playing Puffy AmiYumi. cracks me up.

is it true that DaDa was moved to tomorrow night? i'm thinking i may not be able to go, if that's true.

one more freaking day of work. this stretch of work week has made me SO burned out on all that is officemax. i go in every day with a HORRIBLE attitude. thankfully, though, i love ALL of my coworkers, so by the time i leave, i'm in a giggly, giddy mood again.

funny how that works.

am DYING to make mixed cds for people, like pattie, dj, daniel. i so need to find my cd burning installation disc so that i can get that taken care of. that's the biggest downfall of reformatting your harddrive: having to reinstall everything again. bah.

i also hate the horrid feeling i feel at andrea leaving. i mean, i totally understand and support her reasons for moving, but she's been the best freaking roommate in HISTORY. we haven't fought ONCE in the almost two years we've lived together, a luxury that i'm sure that i won't experience the entire time of living with jessie. well, since jess is my BROTHER and all, he is about the only person on EARTH (other than the 'rents) to witness the few times i've completely lost my temper, thusly, i think it may accidentally make him exempt from my apathetic happy-go-lucky side. i so hope that this isn't true. at least this time, if we get huffy with each other, we have opposite corners to go to, since the apartment is a good size, unlike when we were sharing a studio apartment. i guess that i just am sad that i didn't treasure her as a roommate more when it was going ON, instead of when it has clicked that she was LEAVING. and massive upheaval change. gah, it sort of freaks me out. funny that i so hate monotony, but fear change.

yes, i keep saying that. i still think it's odd.

and i'm pimping out my communities, too, since i haven't done that in awhile...

dreamers_online - for dreams and interpretations..
paste_and_plato - for all that is Jellyfish (Sturmer, Dover, Falkner, Grays, etc.)
nickel_creek - for fellow creeksters. my pride and joy and the only community i ever made that amounted to anything!
you_so_want_me - for promoting whatever the hell you want. yourself. your community. your book. your music.
disco star

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so andrea got me into the swimming pool! it only took her almost a year and a half to do so. i generally don't like swimming for a few different reasons, the biggest being my stupid self conscious self having to have my two WORST features on my body completely nekkid: my thighs and my arms. because of the fact that neither of these usually get sun, when i DO pop out in public showing them off (read: never), they glow in the sunshine. seriously. i was stretching in the pool, the sun came out from behind a cloud, and i had to jerk my leg away from my face because my eyes started watering from the glare.

this used to not always be so. from about age 6 or 7 to about 13 or 14, i was a water baby. i LOVED swimming. i could swim underwater for forever, dive like mad, etc. for some reason though, when i hit puberty, all of a sudden i started to become overwhelmed with a massive PANIC if my face was covered with water. (or more accurately, if water covers my eyes...) i don't know why this is. i never had any near drowning incidences. it's even the same when i wash my face... i have to wash around my eyes, and rinse around my eyes. if i try to do the completely splashing the face thing, it's all i can do to not flail my arms around, shrieking until i find a towel.


overall, i had fun, though i felt bad because i whined the entire time. i'm cold. the sun is bright. i feel like i'm burning. i need to pee. my shoulder hurts. i got water in my ear.

i had forgotten how miserable i am to be around when i'm doing something out of doors sometimes. not always miserable, i don't freak out when having to walk long distances in the heat, for example, or when i'm freeeeezing at night. (though i may remark once or twice about the fact.) ha ha, swimming today reminded me of my teenager self, when i did nothing but CONSTANTLY complain, and had boyfriends leave me because of the fact.

i so wouldn't repeat my teenage hood for the WORLD.

i keep meaning to make a post as to the many reasons why i feel i'm an emotionally stunted human being. i'm certain you are all a-quiver with antici.......................pation.

but no time for it today. must leave for work soon.


pee ess... i had also forgotten how much i desperately WANT TO SLEEP after swimming. but i must leave for work in 15 minutes. *downs her cold coffee*