March 13th, 2006

murphy kiss

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birthday in 6 days, woo!

anyone want to do anything? thought about karaoke at mojo's, if they still have it. don't want to get DRUNK, though. i'm done with DUH-rinking. at least, for a good while. text me if you want to go, if there's a desire, and maybe something will get set up.


school's almost over. i don't have to go tomorrow if i don't want to, so methinks i shall stay home and sleep in. tomorrow night will find me working until 11 pm, wednesday morning will find me in math and english finals starting at 7 am, and finishing at 2 pm, and then working from 4 pm until 11 ish again.

but then i get some time off. woo.


nightmares. i keep having troubled dreams, though i don't know why. stress, mayhaps? the one two nights ago found a bum asking me if he could show me something (the bum i gave change to in portland, in fact.) i agreed, and as i peered over his shoulder to see what he was pointing at, he shoved me into a cage and beat me senseless. he then began a ritual of keeping me in that cage, beating me occasionally, depriving me of either food or water for great lengths of time, or depriving me of light. he would shove needles into my arm to drug me with various drugs with random effects. he hung a calendar on the wall and would change the date at weird intervals to keep me discombobulated, to keep me thinking on one hand that i had only been captive for a short time, and on the other that i had been held and tortured for an eternity. i remember one point, he brought in a bucket of mice and forced me to shove giant bamboo skewers through their anuses and out their mouths for barbecuing, that he said he would wait until they rotted to feed to me. i remember the screaming. i remember what the mice felt like as i forcibly shoved the skewer through their asses, furry and wiggling.

i remember that someone eventually came to my rescue, but at that point, i had become a vegetable. i could hear them speaking, could feel that i was on my side on rough carpet, but no longer cared enough to respond.


thank you SO much, dbaxdevilsfan for my first birthday card!! it meant so much to me!
disco star

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also, i'm sorry that i haven't been around much. i haven't been home for the most part except to sleep and change; what time i was up after work last night was spent on finalizing my big honking essay that was due today. i even left a giant portion of it that the teacher had HIGHLY recommended changing because i was too tired to think. He had told me that even if i completely tank the essay, that i would still get an A-. i was completely shocked that although the teacher had stated SEVERAL times in many classes and in the essay instructions that we needed a title page and a report cover, that one other student in the entire class and I happened to be the only ones that actually did it. everyone else was sent scrambling to the student store for covers. i asked if i got extra credit since i didn't have to leave, he stated that he would be much more lenient on our gradings because we actually knew how to follow directions.

When i have enough mind energy later, remind me to tell you how lovely things in math naturally worked out.

the entire reason for this post, though:

i'm screening the replies to this post. in quickly glancing at my friends list, i see that lots of things happened during my last week of INSANE-ness. talk to me. tell me what's happened in your life this last week or so, as i won't get a chance to read anything until thursday at the earliest. i worries about yous.

screening replies so that if there is something stressful happening that you don't wish for everyone else to see, that you can tell me about it knowing that it's secure. if you want your response to remain screened, please tell me so.

love and miss yous! off to work now...
disco star

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hey, quick question:

got an old computer from someone b/c they were gonna toss it but i think its salvagable. so, here's the deal.

when we start it up, it turns on and goes to the menu that asks if you want to start in safe mode or normal windows mode. if you click either of them, it will take you (sometimes) to the windows screen but as its loading the computer will restart.

um...what do we do? is there a command to make the computer go to a dos setup so we can format the harddrive? any suggestions are fantastic.

thank you.