December 2nd, 2006

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** i don't know if any of you remember the nifty trick that my body learned that caused me to throw up in my sleep a few times? thankfully that stopped. unfortunately, this has been replaced by a constant mini regurgitation while i'm awake. nothing like the constant taste of my own bile to make my day go round. okay, it's not CONSTANT, but no matter how small of an amount i eat, about a half hour later, give or take, i begin to burp, and each and every burp brings a bit of vomit. when i'm not burping, i constantly feel as if the food is trying to work its way back up my esophagus. i had thought it was GERD or some such, but it doesn't matter WHAT i eat. tums do not help. anti gas aids do not help. suggestions?

** at least school is out now, which will make it easier to make it to the free clinic.

** i love my cat, but sometimes i think she has the intelligence of a cashew.

** watched the cutest movie today, a documentary called "young at heart"... it was about two people in their mid eighties who met and fell in love. AWWWWW.

** did my essay on death and dying in the half hour before i left for school today. therefore, nothing was proof read and my grammar wasn't the best, as i had been up less than five minutes when i began it. at any rate, i may post a copy of it for you at aubreystar. it was inner therapy to write, it was.

** i walked in on daniel in the la la bathroom today. he just walked in on jessie. i guess that means that jess will soon walk in on me.

** realized at one point that i had walked all around the store for a good fifteen minutes with a half roll of industrial sized toilet paper in one hand and a very confused look on my face. not one person looked at me askew. i stated this over the radio, and james replied "i figured you knew best, aubs." for the record? i was looking for a roll of paper towels so i could supply the little girls room.

** i like it when people call me aubs.

** i earned $60 in rewards on this check from stopping theft. ha. i didn't even apply for the reward. rawk.
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i was SO ANGRY with faetal in my dream last night. i dreamed that the four of us (including daniel and jessie) were out on the town. jess and daniel called me over- "we have someone we want you to meet!" it was a good looking jock-ish sort of guy - good looking but not anyone i would be attracted to IRL (due to .. issues... i don't really trust good looking men.) but jess and daniel were OH SO EXCITED about introducing him to me, so i decided to give him a chance. we all started hanging out different places around town together, and the guy and i got along quite well. i was just getting a thrill of flirting with someone and having them flirt back, when andrea started flirting with him harder. i refused to throw myself at the man,and instead watched her and him start getting along even better than we had and go off to do activities around town on their own. the logical part of me said that it obviously wasn't meant to be, and that i wouldn't want a man who would be just as romantically interested in any of my female friends, but it still hurt. throughout my real life, i've had many female friends (half of them married) that would flirt with any guy that i would even remotely show interest in, so when i liked someone, i would have to put them up to the "carmen test" or the "tiffany test", etc. to have this happen again through one of my very dearest MARRIED friends cut deep, and i went to talk to my lifelong friend joe, who gave me some really great advice that i of course cannot remember upon waking. i just remember shouting at him that i've been single so long, and that i at least deserved a CHANCE. and then i walked into an artsy coffee shop and spent a day (literally, in my dream) ordering coffee and agonizing over my decision on what to drink, and then finding a bathroom, and then using the grossest bathroom ever. the stall doors were so close to where you had to sit that you couldn't hover - the second you closed the door, it would plop you down on the seat. the seat was a metal grate over a stinking cesspool. the owner of the bathroom was too cheap to get toilet paper, and instead gave you an oily fluffy substance to wipe with. the lights were dim and kept flickering.

and now, the responses to the poll!

wanderlustlover - inner peace. i think that is one of the grand searches in life. i don't care if i make $2 an hour shucking clams or a million dollars an hour as a pro ball player - as long as i'm peaceful within.

nasagrl - only if it wears a tutu.

runesf - of course not. i don't consider myself, though i've done the same.

laughing_piggy - unfortunately fifteen on father's day, to a man who spoke no english. not one of my crowning moments in life.

nemo_wistar - you are my new superhero.

talkingpotato - dunno. maybe it's a spiritual thing. the color speaks to me, as well.

faetal - me too, darlin. i keep wondering if i'm swallowing a ton of air whenever i snarf my food. or am stressed.
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don't forget the advent calendar!

you neopians with nothing better to do should come join my boring guild weeeeeee! i mean, uh.. it's so exciting... everyone is SPEECHLESS! ....

but you should still hang out. and you can add me to your friends list from there.