April 14th, 2007

solitude

A turning point in my life.... I guess.

It kills me to have to say this, but...

Due to scheduling conflicts, I have decided to step down as keyboardist for Electric Doormat.

I love the boys oh so very much, but it's not fair to them that I can't be there, haven't been able to be there in a very long time. I will continue to support and promote them and believe in them in everything that they do.

I also cannot thank them enough, especially Ben, for allowing me to be part of such a wonderful thing. And ya never know where life may take us - we may be able to collaborate in the future.

Please continue to show them your love and support by adding them to your myspace and ordering cds and seeing shows and and and....

I'm extremely heartbroken and have been crying for two days at having to make the decision, including sobbing in the middle of Barnes & Noble yesterday.

Aprils always seem to bring great change for me. April 2003 was when I made the split secondish decision to move back up here. In fact, a year ago today was when I fell in a bush and couldn't use my left hand for days to finish packing.
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    Stephen Lynch - Hermaphrodite
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disco star

Masterbation, choir girls, and the Lavender Choo Choo of Sadness

I'm drunk.

Coworkers's's's's fault.

Felt like a million bucks as I had them consistently rolling in the aisles with my fantastic true life stories.

Talked about masterbation a LOT. Well, all of us did. I quipped in at the appropriate times, but they actually led the conversation on THAT one.

As we were about to leave, noticed a girl from my choir at school sitting almost DIRECTLY next to us.

I'm tired and still sad, now that the immediate joy of bringing laughter to others is gone, and I have to be to work at 8 am although I said I can't work Sundays because the new store manager fucked up my schedule and thusly partially my life so much that i feel that only a runon sentence can properly convey this.

I shall leave you with a conversation had at faetal's crafting night on Thursday. I bought a wooden train with the letters J E S S I E to paint, a VERY long time ago.

Aubrey: Jessie, what color do you want your choo choo? Since you already know about your gift, I will let you choose the colors. Do you want a rainbow, or all blue, or what?
Jessie: I'm not a big fan of rainbows. I dunno. Somber colors, like blue and purple, I suppose. Lavendar.
*everyone chuckles because lavendar isn't really a somber color*
Andrea: yes, it can be your Lavendar Choo Choo of Sadness.

So I'm currently working on creating the Lavender Choo Choo of Sadness, as Bacci is actively trying to shove it all off of my desk to see just how fascinating gravity is. Well, not CURRENTLY THIS SECOND working on it, but the train is on my desk for when I WILL be actively working on it again.

I'm cold.
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    drunk drunk