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Sep. 17th, 2003

so, i was going to do what i do every once in awhile, and post links so that all of you could see how i was doing a year or two years ago.

looking back last year at this time, i realize that i was at the height of my depression. or would that really be the depth? they're really creepy to look back and reread, knowing what i had been going through emotionally at the time, at how much i revieled, and how much i kept hidden, at the clues i set out for others to see, that were never noticed. even random song lyrics i was spurting out in my posts were a sign of what i was feeling..

i had made this post when i was at my absolute worst. i have forever grounded myself from Okay Computer because of that. i had felt myself truly teetering at the edge of madness that night. it was horrible.

reading through those entries, it creeps the hell out of me. seeing my massive mood swings, even in just one day, it's a very... interesting thing.

now that i'm not living it anymore, that is.

and then there's the posts in aubreystar from the year before.


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Sep. 18th, 2003 02:47 am (UTC)
yikes, freaky styley.. it's weird to see how you change in your own words, isn't it?

'course, i did it the same way, so you only have to look at what I did with mr_d_heart..
Sep. 18th, 2003 06:30 am (UTC)
if he was still around, that is ;)

i will be extremely sad if lj ever goes anywhere, because of the fact that i have practically my entire LIFE written down for the last 2 1/2 years.
Sep. 18th, 2003 07:39 am (UTC)
i went through bono not long after i deleted mr_d_heart and copied all the stuff that was in it. took me a few days but then when i erased all the content on bono and started fresh, it was clear of any potential minefields of info.

i have those bono files, and if you want me to i'll go back through your other journals and make a record of them too.. it'd take a while but it'd be worth it, i think :)
Sep. 18th, 2003 11:14 pm (UTC)
how exactly do you do that?
Sep. 19th, 2003 02:26 am (UTC)
the old fashioned way, bringing up pages of entires and cuttin' 'n' pastin' into Word. takes a while but you get a hardcopy of your life for future reference!
Nov. 17th, 2003 11:19 pm (UTC)
ooh, that's a good idea.

i just may do that once i'm hooked up to cable internet and obtain a larger (and working) harddrive!
Nov. 18th, 2003 03:06 am (UTC)
i've been doing it for a while, helps in case there's a databse crash or i want to look at an old post but i cn't be arsed to scroll back through them all..
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