i didn't realize it was going to be about my OTHER father.
my stepfather, brosely's dad, had a heart attack last night. he had to be sent to a hospital a state away, it was so bad. he is currently in Memphis, Tennessee.
He is in ICU until further notice.
I feel.... sick.
I'm so thankful i'm home from work today, so that i wouldn't have to deal with this there.
Ray was, in a lot of respects, more of my father than my real father. i mean, my real biological father has always been daddy to me, and he and i have a good relationship now that i'm grown and everything, but Ray was there from the time i was 2 years old, until 20, when i stayed with him briefly, shortly after our mother had been thrown in prison, before moving to arizona. We still have a great relationship.
God, i don't know how to deal with this. i wouldn't know how to even BEGIN to deal with this, should we lose him.
i'm going to go be with my brother now.