yes i did!

now, if i could just get over this thing i have.. even after two years, whenever i go out with my brother, i always feel awkward, so i down a ton of alcohol until i don't care anymore!

i would say to give it another year. weird how moving home has given me back a lot of the odd social insecurities that i had as a teen.

I decided recently that I'm done with drinking at parties, if not done with drinking, other than an occasional random beer, completely. i went to a surprise birthday party to make an appearance. the people i went with said that they weren't staying long (my brother and daniel.) we got there, they got in a fight and left me there with a ton of people i don't feel comfortable around even under the best of circumstances (read: blabbering drunk), came back and downed TONS of alcohol/beer, meaning i was stuck there until 430 am with zero ride home and highly irritated.

i ended up having to hitch a ride with the boy that i had a crush on for FOUR YEARS with the girl he was THROWING himself at all night. freaking awkward city.

for two weeks after that, whenever they would ask me if i wanted to come with them to do anything, i would say 'NO!'

i've noticed that a lack of transportation to buy said beer also helps keep me away from it!