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yes, yes, it will be magical.

i keep feeling like i need to get out more, that i need to see people, expand my friend base, hang out with people that i keep promising to hang out with, but sorta never get around to (i.e. secret_ninja and oatmeal for two examples.) it seems like the only time that all of my lj friends got together in one place was when we had an impromptu lj drinkup (the drunken version of the meetup) and everyone and their pet moe's showed up. granted, it never happened again, at least, not to the degree that the first one did, although we parted ways promising to meet one month later, same bat time, same bat channel.

i hardly drink anymore, so house parties never really interest me all that much. what generally happens is that i show up and feel extremely awkward, as most people there are fantastic friends with my brother, but barely know me at all, other than just being 'jessie's sister'. thusly, i drink very quickly to get over the awkward phase, and end up drinking WAAAAY more than i planned, and wake up the next morning wanting to regurgitate anything i've eaten in the last week.

whenever we go out to a bar, i instantly feel bored AND awkward. i also end up spending entirely way too much money on drinks, to... yup, get over that awkward phase, and wake up the next morning feeling like nauseated death AND broke.

i really need to find a nifty middle ground. find a group of friends that i feel comfortable with out in public. look for things to do that doesn't necessarily involve drinking, and if it does, only like one drink, i.e. dinner. movies. roaming around town like idiots, checking out random stores on a whim. road trips. playing guitar and singing in the park like a loon (though this would probably involve drinking, too. i get weirded out when i try to sing in front of people sober. that's what i get for doing all of my performances in bars.)

i mean, don't get me wrong. i love andrea to freaking DEATH. i thank the Powers That Be every day for such a fantabulous roommate, but when my ENTIRE FRIENDS NETWORK consists of *counts* 4 or 5 people... lessee.. andrea and joel... jessie and daniel... hrm. i'm the 3rd or 5th wheel in any friend situation (though thankfully, it never feels that way.)

i also can't shake this feeling of Impending Unavoidable Doom. as if something MAJORLY BAAAAD is going to happen, and soon, i.e. my mother dying. my stepfather dying. my real father dying. eviction. arresting and tossing in jailing. i dunno.

so... anyone wanna hang out? i can't guarantee i won't flake ;)

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bigstusexy
Jun. 24th, 2005 07:51 pm (UTC)
Crap crap crap crap crapcrapcrap KRAP! I'd do it if it werent for like the milage.

Hmmm lets see, I too face the same problem, I don't drink and never have. Its also not likely that I'll strike up an interesting conversation lately either :P My friend had been in the sand for a year a few months and she's got worlds more to day(sometimes) than I do that can get people talking.

Anywho, that same friend and I have gone bowling a few time, perhaps things like that can be fun with friends? Bowling, batting cages, ooo GOKARTS!!!

I think there is still a quest here to find the alcahol free fun zone but sitting in the park listening to someone play songs and then singing themselves silly sounds perfect!

Stu-
aubkabob
Dec. 6th, 2005 06:25 pm (UTC)
you know, i always DID want to do gokarts!

i don't bowl due to wrist issues (though now that i'm moving furniture all of the time, it may have changed, they may be stronger now? maybe.)
bigstusexy
Dec. 6th, 2005 10:35 pm (UTC)
Don't forget about cork balls!

Don't stress, there are tons of other things todo, personally perched infront of the TV with a nice gaming session and or movie would be the winner!
aubkabob
Nov. 2nd, 2006 09:55 pm (UTC)
cork balls?
bigstusexy
Nov. 3rd, 2006 04:19 pm (UTC)
Ahhh when I looked at the mail and saw I said cork balls I was clueless, when I saw your repely I was still clueless, I tried to see if it was a typo but pork balls don't make any sense either!


However I did mean cork balls, bowling balls made of cork. They are much lighter but still ususable, they are what you should give to kids before they get into actualy... acrilic? Balls.

Stu-
talkingpotato
Jun. 24th, 2005 08:13 pm (UTC)
I wish we lived near by, none of my 'fun things to do' involve drinking. When I was at the art and wine festival (AHAHA well I didnt have any wine) there were so many things I saw and thought "ooh aubrey would have gotten a kick out of this"
You'd also love the egyptian museum here.

I HATE those unavoidable doom feelings. Ya know around 3 months before my cat passed away and everything got REALLY BAD, I had that feeling something awful was going to happen. *shudders* and ya know there have been a few occasions where I get this..'feeling' and the next day someone I know of (but haven't met) dies. It creeps me out when it happens.
aubkabob
Apr. 23rd, 2006 11:51 pm (UTC)
just like the girl on the bus that was killed just a few hours after i sat next to her. why had i even noticed her? i almost never pay attention to my surroundings while i'm on the bus, i'm so engrossed with my mp3 player and trying not to get noticed ;) it just blows me away to know that i had been sitting there, thinking how pretty she was, how delicate, and she was dead 7 hours later. why had i NOTICED that she got on the bus with me? why had i noticed where she got off the bus. creepy.

ah, yes, i love doing wonderful random stuff like that! maybe one day, we WILL be able to hit random places together! weee!
talkingpotato
Apr. 24th, 2006 04:13 am (UTC)
You mentioned she knew the guy? Was he an ex or something?
aubkabob
Sep. 17th, 2006 07:18 am (UTC)
nope, she didn't know the guy at all. he was schitzophrenic and lived within a block of my apartment complex. he had just walked down to that area with the intention of harming a female, knife stuck in his jacket. he walked into the mcdonalds and she was sitting there in the eating area on her break. just stabbed her through the heart and left. a coworker chased him down and help catch him, but she never made it to the hospital alive.
talkingpotato
Sep. 17th, 2006 08:05 am (UTC)
:( that's really sad..
I'm always worried about random stuff happening to me. Just because people tend to 'pick me out' but it's normally not for any good intent LOL
aubkabob
Nov. 10th, 2006 03:48 am (UTC)
i've learned to disappear in public spaces and not draw attention to myself. says the girl who never wears matching socks, wears pants waaay too short for her and other funky things. ah, well. maybe they think i'm too old to single out anymore.
talkingpotato
Nov. 10th, 2006 07:22 am (UTC)
heeh awww same here about trying to hide. I think the fact that I try to hide makes me stand out even more if that makes any sense. I ooze "don't notice me!" from my pores. Hey maybe that's where my skin issue is coming from.
oatmeal
Jun. 24th, 2005 09:11 pm (UTC)
winner!
I would love to. I keep forgetting that since I'm 'involuntarily leisured' at the moment, I really *could* go up to Vancouver. And by forgetting I mean I could, but then I would have no idea what to do with myself.

I would love to go stalking around a city for a while, though -- either this one or that one.

You could play guitar, and we could both sing, and then you'd feel better, because no matter what, I will sound worse than you do.

And there are a few different movies I want to see right now. We'll manage to stay entertained.

Give me a call pretty much anytime. I'm available anytime between right now and sometime next week, when I will finally start working.

971-998-3835
aubkabob
Feb. 25th, 2006 02:39 am (UTC)
Re: winner!
i think the older i get, the more terrified of the phone i become. i'm still wanting to roam.. around... and stuff. it's just getting me in a mood where my curiosity actually overrides my laziness :)
madmadhatter
Jun. 24th, 2005 09:20 pm (UTC)
I'm down with chillin yo!
aubkabob
Feb. 21st, 2006 03:30 am (UTC)
yes, yes, well if it weren't for a 4 hour drive...
madmadhatter
Feb. 25th, 2006 01:49 am (UTC)
i know...we need teleporters, damn it jim!
onionsniper
Jun. 25th, 2005 05:15 am (UTC)
I want to hang out. But I'm 100 miles away. Boo.
And the LJ Drinkup was so not impromptu. We planned that pretty far in advance and kind of reserved the bar, dude. The lesson: FUN IS NOT SPONTANEOUS! EVERYONE GIVE UP!
oatmeal
Jun. 25th, 2005 07:48 pm (UTC)
I dreamt about you last night. There was a costume party and you came as a bride. You were also 7 feet tall.
onionsniper
Jun. 27th, 2005 07:18 am (UTC)
Sounds psychically delicious!
We should talk soon.
ex_alariya46
Jun. 25th, 2005 07:38 am (UTC)
I'm up for grabs! :)
aubkabob
Sep. 23rd, 2005 04:45 am (UTC)
yay! i would shit purple twinkies, as the saying goes, if you ever showed up on my doorstep! ;)
ex_alariya46
Sep. 23rd, 2005 12:08 pm (UTC)
Hmm... I'll have to keep that in mind.

*pats bag to make sure camera is available to catch purple butt twinkie phenomena when visit comes*

Just you wait till I have enough money to travel!
aubkabob
Sep. 17th, 2006 07:19 am (UTC)
and just you wait until we have a couch to sleep on!

though you would be most welcome to share my futon!
sweet_tiffany82
Jun. 26th, 2005 12:06 am (UTC)
yeh drinking gets old..

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