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yesterday?

a good day.

i hadn't thought it would be, really, especially when i flung open the front door for my 30 minute walk to work to see it pouring rain. meh. maybe i should put on a coat?

so i put on my hoody (yes, yes, jess, i know it's YOUR hoody. possession is 9/10 of the law, no? but anyhoo.) and set off to work. my mp3 player tossed on some Sloan-age, which put me in a better mood.

as i hit the street, i felt like.. well.. there's just something about the hoody lately that is magic: whenever i have the opportunity to wear it zipped up completely, i want to RUN. (due to summer being here and all, it's rare that this happens anymore.) so i started jogging. i ran until i could run no more (which wasn't very far. *le sigh*) and then walked briskly to andresen, the massively busy street i walk down that has no sidewalk, only a shoulder on the side of the road.

and i began to run again. as i was running, i was filled with elation: i had forgotten how fun it was to just RUN.. not for exercise, not for being made to in gym class, but JUST BECAUSE. so i smiled. i then saw all the cars driving past me on the busy street, and wondered what they would think of seeing an overweight girl running with a smile on her face. so i grinned from ear to ear. i began laughing open mouthed as i thought of the cars going past, and commenting "wow, that's the happiest jogger i think i've ever seen!" all the while, it was pouring down on my head, dripping off of my hood and soaking ONLY the front of my pants.

when i got about 3/4 of the way to work and was waiting for a stoplight, i saw andrea and her mother turn the corner and wave at me as they pulled into the parking lot of the Shell station to pick me up. at the same time i began to walk over to the car, Coworker Cathy pulls into the same parking lot, honking, waving, and calling my name.

apparantly, andrea was sitting here when it started DUMPING rain. in a panic, she got up and ran to her car to find me. i felt loved. at the same exact time, Coworker Muriel saw it dumping and said over the radio "um... aubrey isn't walking to work at the moment... is she?" they all frantically ran to a schedual to check. when it turned out i WAS en route, Supervisor Roxana said "QUICK! SOMEONE FIND HER!!!" and sent Cathy on her way. i felt loved.

wow. for starting a day where i felt glum and a bit unwanted, suddenly, i felt extremely special and loved. i didn't mind walking in the rain at all (having put my contacts in), but EVERYONE was concerned for my safety.

apparantly, during my run, my lip had cracked and was bleeding, so between that and the fact that only the FRONT of me was SOPPING wet, i looked like i had fell on my face. Coworker Chase pointed and laughed at me.

later on, as i was filling ink, and after making tentative plans with Coworker Jessalyn, i had a revelation: I ... wow. i LIKE my life. I am happy with where i'm currently at. I work with amazing people, where only one person in the entire building makes me want to chuck rocks at. (and he doesn't mean to.) i have amazing friends, although my friend base is smaller than it had been in phoenix, they're much more quality (you phoenician friends never fear: i love you dearly, but we just didn't have the -closeness- that i do with my friends here). sure, my mother's declining health and mentality is cause for great worry, as well as dealing with poor judgement i made in the past rearing its ugly head (read: jeep.), but overall?

i don't think i could have asked for a better life.

and thank you all for being a part of it.

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aubkabob
Jan. 28th, 2006 06:26 am (UTC)
thank you so much for allowing me to share it, and for sticking around for oh so very long although i've been a bad, bad friend.
toomuchfashion
Jul. 9th, 2005 06:24 pm (UTC)
that was a really great entry. im glad that you realized how loved you are! :)
aubkabob
Apr. 24th, 2006 01:55 am (UTC)
it blows me away all the time how many wonderful people i have in my life!

i'm so thankful!
sweet_tiffany82
Jul. 9th, 2005 06:33 pm (UTC)
im going to jump on the wagon too and say this is a great entry because it really is :)

thats cool that you ran. running is very theraputic.exercising is just theraputic period. i luv it.
bigstusexy
Jul. 9th, 2005 06:39 pm (UTC)
I'm am honored :D
Sounds like you've got it going :) Great friends good job great home to come to. Life is good! Oh yeah smiling to the point that you open you lip priceless :D

don't focus on the overweight thing at all sure it might be good to be xyz but I think you are fine from what I can tell (I notice you show onlikelike I lot of Neck up shots :P Note to self: try to put wings on shadown picture)

OK I'm done rambling have a good day.
Take care and let all those
faetal
Jul. 9th, 2005 06:52 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
its good to be .... examine your zipper?? (xyz?)

bigstusexy
Jul. 9th, 2005 07:16 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
What LOL

I am a bit lost hee hee.
I guess I chopped off too much I ment xyz weight. You know the general or recomended weight and stuff but... (back to sentence)
aubkabob
Dec. 6th, 2005 07:29 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
hee hee, remember in school, when they used to shout 'XYZPDQ!'? x-amine your zipper, pretty darn quick? for fly open situations?
bigstusexy
Dec. 6th, 2005 09:13 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
lol thats a good one, its actually new to me hee hee.
aubkabob
Nov. 2nd, 2006 09:49 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
ha ha! you never got xyz'ed?
bigstusexy
Nov. 3rd, 2006 03:56 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
No, never, I guess because outside of malfunctioning zippers mine never really come down and thus never been caught so to say. I have heard things about planes and flys and barn door but never xyz.
aubkabob
Dec. 6th, 2005 07:27 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
ha ha, this reminds me of a customer that came in last night... i didn't see him COME in, but he set down two wireless dohickies onto the deactivator thingie that we rub them across to keep alarms from going off when he leaves, and they beeped, thusly meaning they had never been deactivated before. he didn't set the alarm off when he came in. he didn't have a receipt. he complained of a long day, having worked since 6 am, his wife bought them, etc. i'm sorry, sir, we cannot/will not return $120 of merchandise without a receipt, ESPECIALLY when it's obviously never been deactivated. he threw a mini fit. as he reached over to borrow my pen to scribble something down, i noticed his fly was open.

i figured that if he was having such a long day, farbeit for me to point that out ;)
aubkabob
Dec. 6th, 2005 07:24 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
well, i am a bit smaller than i was at the beginning of the year (30 lbs less), so i am a bit more confident in my physique than i used to be. having good friends that celebrate curvacious women and curse the media for their ludicrous ideas of what a woman should look like has certainly helped, as well.
bigstusexy
Dec. 6th, 2005 09:11 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
having good friends that celebrate curvacious women and curse the media for their ludicrous ideas of what a woman should look like has certainly helped, as well.

Tell me about it! I mean seriously why would I want a flat woman that resembles a stick figure? Also I hope this isn't going over the line but... I think most of these woman that are on televison are so thin that... if I unleashed my pent-up sexual fury them I'm bound to break something, in the bad way.

I think somewhere around either the biroque or victorian period, people loved big and bigger women, why, cause they are the bomb (outdated term I know)

Look:
they aren't always going to be worried about what the eat and what not, more fun time for me.
Perhaps this isn't true but someone that thin my be bocessive about their weight and have other issues too, issues make people fun but there is an enough is enough point you know.

So yeah horah for the women that dare to live their life normally!

STu-
aubkabob
Nov. 2nd, 2006 09:48 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
i mean, i would like to correct my eating habits only partially because i don't want to be as .. fluffy... as i am, but i want to do it more for my health - to help stave off diabetes and high blood pressure, both of which run in the family. i'm not too young anymore!
aubkabob
Nov. 2nd, 2006 09:49 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
and thankfully it seems like more men - depending upon the part of the country you live in - are starting to feel like you do.
bigstusexy
Nov. 3rd, 2006 03:54 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm am honored :D
Yes thankfully, although I don't think the there will be a return of the, darn it forgot the period in time and the painters name, full figured women being appreciated but at least everyone seems to be easing up on the superficial super thing look.
modernmerlin
Jul. 9th, 2005 09:31 pm (UTC)
I love running in the rain. Its so freeing. (missing it terribly cause it very rarely rains here in Cali) Its always good to be reminded how much we are loved. Glad you found that space :)
aubkabob
Mar. 1st, 2006 04:27 am (UTC)
thank you, every time i go back to this post, i smile :)
bitchtransformr
Jul. 9th, 2005 11:54 pm (UTC)
you know, i found a whole website about making soap out of bacon. you should look into it.
aubkabob
Feb. 28th, 2006 06:23 pm (UTC)
hrm. methinks i would eat more bacon than i... soaped.
kimberlychapman
Jul. 10th, 2005 08:34 am (UTC)
I'm so glad you had a good day. I especially love how it turned around from seeming like it was going to suck to suddenly showing you that people care about you. I'm elated that you had that! :D

I love the rain. Never properly appreciated it until I moved to a desert, but yeah, it's awesome. It just smells good, doesn't it?
aintesduck
Jul. 10th, 2005 04:07 pm (UTC)
That's so cool! *hugs* ^_^
aubkabob
Oct. 3rd, 2005 03:55 am (UTC)
thank you! and i've decided to add that to my memories because just reading it uplifted me SO freaking much, after a long arduous day.

FANTASTIC!
inisfair
Jul. 11th, 2005 04:58 am (UTC)
This is one of the most awesome posts I've read in a long time.

Friends, real friends, are probably one of the rarest commodities on the planet.

It's also nice to have people worry about you even when you're not around to remind them you're still a person.
aubkabob
Feb. 16th, 2006 09:53 pm (UTC)
very much so. I'm so freaking blessed with the people that I have in my life now. It was extremely rough leaving all of my friends in phoenix when i left, and hurts a bit that i have zero contact with ANY of them anymore. It took a long time (a couple of years) to fully settle here emotionally and get to know - truly know - the people that I have in my life now. I think that the cutting off of the old self and the discovery of my new self needed that 2 year or so expanse of aloneness in order to fully understand and appreciate what i have now.
scene_stealer
Jul. 12th, 2005 12:13 am (UTC)
that's petty cool that your co-workers would be concerned about you walking in the rain. so much so that people would go out to get you. no one cared when i had to ride the bus and walk from the bus stop to work. one time it rained so hard i had to buy new pants before work because mine were soaked. luckily i worked in a mall and that was easy to do.

it really is about the quality of friends and not the quantity.
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