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Aug. 15th, 2005

egads, something tells me that i need to go back to bed and start the day completley over. i'm in a funk. an angry funk, and i can't even really put my finger on WHY.

the fact that i got called into work 2 hours early probably doesn't help. but i had seriously no REAL reason why i couldn't go in at 1 instead of 3 to help them out, so i agreed. besides, it's been awhile since i've worked with roxana, and i miss her. what's a 9 hour shift, anyway? though i'm sure that if she's calling me at 10, that she won't be closing. probably with Ricky, then, since Steve is on vaca.


weird dreams where Matthew Good became my roommate, roommates with benefits. interesting, as i've never thought of Matthew Good in THAT sense. but i remember him wanting to kiss me, and i was too busy worrying about clearing the yellow shopping carts out of the wal*mart parking lot and making sure that the one with the scrapbooking stuff that Mary needed me to do didn't get mixed in with the other officemax carts. i remember being angry at having to do the scrapbooking stuff, as i am SO not a booker, but because i PROMISED...

huh, never knew Matthew Good was such a.. political and human rights guy. learn something new every day.

today is the kind of day where i would LOVE to just stay in my perjammas (well, in this case, "pajamas" are a tank top and my long brown skirt. it makes me feel... wholesome and hippy like.) and loll on my bed and read or go through old video tapes or something. i SO don't feel like working officemax into the mix.


change is on the horizon. massive change. roommates will be leaving in a couple of weeks, and i will be dealing with living with my brother for the first time in .. well, a very very long time. i just hope that we get along MUCH better in a giant apartment vs the couple of times we lived together in close quarters.

so much change.

funny that i hate monotony to DEATH, but fear change. silly how that works.

i also think i need to take a step back from drinking for awhile, and start to do non drinky things again: movies. random escapades. used book store perusing. i want to experience life again, and not through a drunken haze, which is how it seems like i experience ANYTHING anymore. so feel free to call and say "hey, aubrey! how bout we... *fillintheblankwithsomethingthatdoesn'tcostmoneybutisrandomandinteresting*!!!"

this isn't to say i'll give up Mojo's on sundays, of course. well, depending upon how the new kj works out.

don't. wanna. work.



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Aug. 15th, 2005 05:59 pm (UTC)
Aug. 15th, 2005 06:35 pm (UTC)
I hear ya as far as funk. Don't know what it is about this particular Monday, but everyone here in the office is in a craptastic mood too.

Now am I the only one who can't see them, or have your icons lately just not been showing up? Just curious
Jul. 22nd, 2006 06:48 pm (UTC)
not sure that i ever had an issue with them showing up, but of course it's hard to say since i'm taking a year to respond to things!

i'm hoping that no one will feel the burning need to go office supply shopping in this massive heat wave that we're having and it'll be blessedly slow at work. everyone should be down at the beach, anyway.

says me.
Aug. 15th, 2005 07:07 pm (UTC)
Hey Aubrey! How about we go on safari some time. I want to pick up a small monkey and bring him home. And it wont cost a thing if we hitch hike and then go back packing and then swim yeah yeah thats the ticket! ;) hee hee hee

Sorry for the funk. Life is a funny place to live ;)

Aug. 15th, 2005 09:25 pm (UTC)
OMG it was really interesting how I read that super fast and understood it! usually when there are things like that I can't understand them and have to go back and read them like 1/4 the speed but that was quick! hmmm...

Things in common ---Fear of change---
I think it comes from not being too comfortable initially (at least for me) it can take you a while to adjust and there is a certain comfort in knowing just what to expect, whats comming down the pipe and that you've delt with it before and dispatching it this time shall be no different. Where as change, although it can bring about fresh goodness, also has its conotation that includes bad things. Uncertain doubt bit a fear, all of chich can be said to follow change but it doesn't have to. I do understand what you mean though when you say monotony is no fun either.
IE: You'd rather take the same car, the same route with the same stops to work everyday however you rather not your job just be twisting on bottle caps all day.

Yep thats about all I have to add at this time.
Jul. 22nd, 2006 06:49 pm (UTC)
i always love your analogies, stu!!

so very much has changed in the past year (just made a post about it, in fact), and as much as i fear change, i see that every single part of it has been for the better, so...
Aug. 16th, 2005 02:42 am (UTC)
Self-medication = big yes to avoid

I'd be tempted, but it doesn't even do enough to make it worth it to be in a drunken haze.

..That sounds really bad, hahaha. =) But you know. Alcohol is such a waste. Just pursue life.

Aug. 21st, 2005 08:42 am (UTC)
You know what's REALLY fun? Fingerpainting. I say go to the thriftstore, buy a white sheet, buy some cheap acrylics, put on old clothes and GO CRAZEH!!! Splash, slap, create, swirl, have wild random fun. Then let it dry and tack it to one of your walls to make you feel energized and happy when you look at it.
Jul. 22nd, 2006 06:51 pm (UTC)
THERE you go!!! i have a gazillion acrylics just lying around, too, that i keep meaning to use!
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