i'm starting to seriously think of not going on vaca, so that i can work and make money, instead of go and spend it. if i DON'T go, i'll lose the $200+ i paid for the trip, won't get to see my sandy eggo friends, won't be able to spend time topdeck at night clearing my head and soul searching.
on the other hand, if i stay, that's a whole weeks worth of pay i'll get (i have no vacation time left, so if i go, it's an entire unpaid week), will be able to make rent, will get commission, i won't have my booking stolen from me while i'm gone (i get it done when i'm here, so it certainly won't sway anyone from ganking EVERYTHING while i'm gone). i dunno if i would be able to get someone else to go in a week and a half's time that would room with matt. *sigh*
also, if i don't go on this vacation, it will be at LEAST april before i can even THINK about taking another one, and cruises are much more expensive then.
i just don't know what to do.