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i dreamed last night that something had happened, and i had been able to go on the cruise. i dreamed that i snuck to my boss's desk and took my tickets back out (why they were there instead of in my apartment, i have no clue). i dreamed that i danced and pirouetted with sunshine and rainbows and candy canes dancing around my head.

then i woke up.

i wanna go. i really wanna go. i just don't see how it's feasable. do work places allow you to go in the hole when it comes to vacation time? it doesn't hurt to ask, plead, throw myself at their mercy. worst case scenerio, Human Resources can have a good laugh at my expense. i mean, hell, i AM the girl whose thighs thanked the new young guy for getting her the gym membership.

i miss the excitement coming around that last bend in San Pedro, and seeing the beautiful commercialized Carnival Fishtail sticking up. i miss the fight through the serpentine line with the anticipation whether or not you got that upgrade. i miss finally edging your way through the metal detector and walking through the entrance and seeing how gigantos the ship looks, and how bright and heavenly it looks with the sun shining directly on it's gigantic whiteness. i miss chirping excitedly to the roommate as you go on the Quest to Find Your Room and See if Your Key Works. I miss dumping everything in the middle of the stateroom floor and bed and taking a deep breath as you decide whether to unpack or to leave and explore for Cute Singles.

i miss the ship rocking me to sleep every night. i sleep like a brick when i'm on a ship, a happy, innocent childlike slumber. i miss going on top of the ship every night after i have my cappuccino between lobster dinner and creme brule dessert, to find that 'alone' spot in the back side to let the wind blow through my hair, close my eyes, breathe the sea air and listen to the swoosh of the waves as i clear my head, letting all my stress for the moment float away. i miss that most of all. my Alone Time at night.

i think the dream gave me a slight bit of hope, that all is not lost unless you let it be lost. i want to fight for this vacation.

i WILL fight for this vacation.

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nutty
Oct. 17th, 2002 08:37 am (UTC)
I'm glad you still have that hope. You can do it. Keep working. Something will come up.
After reading your entry now I really can't wait. I'm looking forward for that alone time at night on the running deck. Not many people go up there so it is peaceful. :~)
aubkabob
Oct. 17th, 2002 08:40 am (UTC)
exactly. if i go on this trip, it's because i want to spend some time with you, some time with the boys, and matt will be unavoidable ;) hee. i need to clear my head of a LOT of things, and desperately need to get the hell AWAY.
nutty
Oct. 17th, 2002 03:50 pm (UTC)
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And I would like to spend time with you since our schedules don't match up much anymore.
aubkabob
Oct. 20th, 2002 11:22 am (UTC)
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that would be loverly! i had SO much freaking fun yesterday, although my feet STILL hurt!
nutty
Oct. 21st, 2002 01:18 pm (UTC)
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I haven't laughed that hard for a long time. Well, maybe except for today reading your bra post.
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aubkabob
Oct. 20th, 2002 10:03 am (UTC)
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everything happens for a reason, and i feel i'm meant to go on this vacation. to be there for si, to meet cassie, to do other things..
nutty
Oct. 21st, 2002 01:21 pm (UTC)
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Other things??? Hehehe
aubkabob
Oct. 24th, 2002 05:03 pm (UTC)
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things? i meant "boys".
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aubkabob
Oct. 20th, 2002 10:10 am (UTC)
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heh... didn't quite work out that way, but what can ya do?

"go on vacation and deal with it when you come back?" you say.

"why, yes, stace, that is EXACTLY what i will do!" i reply with a lopsided grin.
talkingpotato
Oct. 17th, 2002 10:18 am (UTC)
Aubrey the Conquerer!!!
I just read your last post, and I'm thrilled for you!! You so deserve this vacation, with your creativity and determination it's in the bag ;-)
Don't forget to invest in some sea sickness pills (or do you get urpy on boats?) :-D
aubkabob
Oct. 20th, 2002 10:14 am (UTC)
Re: Aubrey the Conquerer!!!
naw, i don't get urpy on boats. all my other cruises, as long as i grab a drink when i first get on board before we leave, by the time we DO leave, i won't know if it's me or the ship ;) the one time i didn't do that, i got a bit urpy, but once i had my first drink, i was fine!
talkingpotato
Oct. 20th, 2002 12:50 pm (UTC)
Re: Aubrey the Conquerer!!!
Wow ehhe usually it's the opposite where you get MORE urpy after drinks..
I've never been on a boat longer than 20 minutes (ferries and such)
aubkabob
Oct. 23rd, 2002 06:26 pm (UTC)
Re: Aubrey the Conquerer!!!
cruise ships are WAY different. promise.
talkingpotato
Oct. 23rd, 2002 06:33 pm (UTC)
Re: Aubrey the Conquerer!!!
they have jacuzzies!
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