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sorry that i've been antisocial lately, online and in real life. i just need alone time for awhile, i guess. so if i haven't returned your calls, i assure you: it's me, not you. i go through periods of time now and again to where i feel like i don't want to really talk to anyone that i don't HAVE to, time to be introspective, time to readjust.

now is one of those times.

lots going on mentally, though i don't really feel like talking about it.

the foot was MUCH worse this morning, to where i could almost not walk at ALL. my dearest faetal says we're going to the free clinic tonight. i feel dumb about the whole thing, and angry. if i would have done something to honestly injure my foot enough to keep me out of work, sure, i could deal with that. but to just wake up and magically not be able to walk? not so nifty. it almost seems like i dislocated my big toe or something: i have zero range of movement and cannot put my foot flat on the floor, almost as if there's a ... something... in the way. oh yeah, and the weird pins and needles sensation in my big toe, too, and odd coloring of part of it? not good. but how on EARTH does one do something like that in their sleep and not realize it until waking?!?

there's a massive storm blowing outside. it's days like today that i so wish that i had a covered balcony. it's PERFECT for curling up in a dry place outside with a book. wind whipping through the trees, a rain of water and leaves blowing everywhere.

it's really beautiful.

and i still haven't done what i had wanted to this fall: go out into the woods and flop down underneath a canopy of brightly colored leaves and just BE.

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talkingpotato
Oct. 25th, 2005 11:50 pm (UTC)
I hope your toe gets better and that it isn't a fracture or something :-( I'll be thinking of you tonight!

I've also been feeling a bit antisocial lately too. Not sure what the deal is.
aubkabob
Oct. 27th, 2006 01:48 am (UTC)
hee hee, i was thinking that it was a phase, but it's been a year now, and i STILL don't feel like going anywhere or returning anyone's calls!
talkingpotato
Oct. 27th, 2006 06:20 am (UTC)
HAHAAHHA Same here..
Maybe erm..it's a LONG phase.
It's funny that now I have people who actually want to hang out with me but I'd rather be alone reading.
aubkabob
Jul. 13th, 2009 02:26 am (UTC)
I truly need to get around to reading more besides just before bed. I should be like my brother and take a book with me everywhere - there's SO many instances where I can get some pages in! Especially now that tv's gone all digital and our tv in the break room no longer works :)
talkingpotato
Jul. 13th, 2009 06:55 am (UTC)
I think you would love the Tales of the Otori books, they were a great read.
jecook
Oct. 25th, 2005 11:51 pm (UTC)
I hope it's nothing major.
stooge
Oct. 25th, 2005 11:55 pm (UTC)
There are no excuses for being away for long periods of time. Unacceptable!
faetal
Oct. 25th, 2005 11:58 pm (UTC)
1. we dont flop in the PNW because when the fall leaves are colored you sink 3 inches into mud under neath them.
2. are we going for sure than? did i miss a phone call? when do you want to be there?
soulresilience
Oct. 26th, 2005 12:01 am (UTC)
Amputate the toe, caudorize with gun powder, then go running nilly willy through the woods. The end.
aubkabob
Oct. 27th, 2006 01:48 am (UTC)
which is exactly what i did.
soulresilience
Oct. 27th, 2006 03:10 am (UTC)
lol liar
icebox
Oct. 26th, 2005 12:28 am (UTC)
I don't know, I bet you could have done something in your sleep.

I used to be pretty rough in my sleep.
When I was about 10 - 16 I used to wake up routinely with blood all over my pillow from either hitting my nose or my mouth on something.
I still wake up with a bloody mouth sometimes actually, but now it's because I bite my tounge way too hard while I sleep.
aubkabob
Oct. 27th, 2006 01:49 am (UTC)
ouchies, woman! eeeeeesh!
capitalsax
Oct. 26th, 2005 12:50 am (UTC)
I will be sending you lots of positive thoughts for your toe. Feel better, mkay
baryon
Oct. 26th, 2005 03:27 am (UTC)
I hope everything turns out OK.
aubkabob
Oct. 28th, 2005 09:30 pm (UTC)
it always does. :)
jenniffer
Oct. 26th, 2005 03:47 pm (UTC)
Hope they figure out what's going on with your foot. I'm sorry you're having a tough time right now. No worries, when you're feeling scocial again, I'll still be here!
aubkabob
Oct. 28th, 2005 09:29 pm (UTC)
hee hee, and hopefully today's barriage of comments will help to ease the pain and suffering of long lost aubkabob comments!

er, or something.
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