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this post has been un-sugar coated.

yes, i hath returned. i couldn't completely delete my journal, anyway, although i became so unenamored with things in livejournal and my circle of 'friends' that i had to do .. SOMETHING. and since i couldn't even stand to look at aubkabob any longer, i deleted it.

what triggered it, you ask? (i knew you would.) basically, after working 50-60 hours a week over the holidays, getting little to no sleep, and stressing out over going back to school after a 12 year absence, things were a bit strenuous. you will remember, too, that i was working so much that i even pulled an almost 24 hour shift, getting little sleep, and going in for another however many hours. i put in over 40 hours within 3 1/2 days at one job, neveryoumind how many i put in at the other job, too.

shortly after my last post on the first, some of you had the GALL to tell me i was an awful friend because i hadn't been reading your journal, or responding to posts or responses. one person occasionally, i could understand, but suddenly many of you were coming out of the woodwork to tell me what a horrible person i was because i wasn't stopping in my busy REAL life in order to pet and pamper your egos.

you know what? i have a life. granted, my life isn't overly exciting, but it is a LIFE. i do adore my online friends greatly. i feel closer to some of you than i do to most people IN this real life i lead. however, the way i tend to my journal... remember. it is MY journal. i have stated several times that even in good, slow times, i can tend to take up to six months to respond to things. if you don't like it? there's the door. i will not be offended if you delete me because you feel that we don't have enough interaction. i WILL, however, be offended if you decide to attack ME.

i'm certain that things will certainly change now that i am in school, too. last week, i worked 42 hours from 330 pm to late night, as WELL as went to school from 7 am until noon, EVERY DAY. my life is now consisting of only work and school and very little sleep. i'm certain that the topic of my posts will change, too, as i have realized that i actually REALLY like this school thing, and thusly will be blabbering about it quite extensively. if you don't like it? again, defriend me, and no offense will be taken.

this post may seem harsh, and for that, i do NOT apologize. this is also not geared towards one person, but towards all of you. if you do not like me and how i keep my journal or deal with my responses, this is your easy way out. i have zero time or emotions to devote to pampering your asses. if you are willing to take me as i am, good and the bad, and are able to have civilized conversations, by all means, feel free to stay.


Jan. 10th, 2006 05:15 am (UTC)
i adore aubrey, calm down there, mr. feisty.
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Jan. 10th, 2006 05:25 am (UTC)
Re: Fishing.
Aug. 7th, 2006 10:45 pm (UTC)
Re: Fishing.
reading back on all this, it's quite funny. i feel so loved that everyone jumped to my defense like that, thank you!
Jan. 10th, 2006 05:43 am (UTC)
You should have kept it between the two of you then instead of doing this in a public forum. There is e-mail, chat programs and several other methods of communication. Failing those, you could have created a LJ filter that only the two of you could see. Take responsibility for what you're doing already.
Jan. 15th, 2006 01:32 am (UTC)
I know that this is a late reply but.....
*claps hands* thats EXACTLY THE POINT I tried to make...

thank you.
its like walking up to a group of people, bringing up a "secret" between you and one of the people in the group and then YELLING at the other people standing RIGHT THERE for taking interest in the conversation.

Jan. 15th, 2006 02:10 am (UTC)
That icon pic is so cool. *grins*

*nods* I would have done the same thing if anyone else had spoken to Aubs that way. I'm very protective of the people I care about.
Jan. 15th, 2006 03:18 am (UTC)
I tend to be protective, but am sure that my friends can take care of their own business... but when someone starts drama in a PUBLIC (and yes, our journals are public, damnit) area, AND it involves one of my bestest friends? well even mild-mannered Andrea will speak out.
Jan. 15th, 2006 04:52 am (UTC)
My feelings exactly! *grins*
Jan. 15th, 2006 04:54 am (UTC)
Awesome, I love to interact with like minded peoples!
Jan. 15th, 2006 04:56 am (UTC)
You know what they say. Genius loves company.

*innocent look*
Jan. 15th, 2006 05:12 am (UTC)
and Miseriee too. erm, uh, misery. yeah

don't we ALL love company? really?
Jan. 15th, 2006 05:17 am (UTC)
That would depend on when and who the company was. As a general rule I always enjoy company. Just not right after work. I'm rubbed a little raw after dealing with customers all day.
Jan. 15th, 2006 05:37 am (UTC)
After my customer service job I was always so RELIEVED to be around NORMAL people, i loved friends after work... I dont enjoy company when I'm still really zombified in the mornning, thats no fun.. I always feel guilty for my non-awakenesscheeryness. Thats a big reason I loved Aubs, she and I had sorta unspoken rules that we didnt talk to eachother when it was still zombie time, unless we were commenting on the cat, or uhm unless it was really funny.
Jan. 15th, 2006 07:20 am (UTC)
I'm that way with the housemates sometimes. Engaging in random talk is strangely relaxing, at times. Everyone knows though, don't bother Rob until he's been caffeinated. They don't refer to me as the caffeinated disciple for nothing. *chuckles*
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