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birthday in 6 days, woo!

anyone want to do anything? thought about karaoke at mojo's, if they still have it. don't want to get DRUNK, though. i'm done with DUH-rinking. at least, for a good while. text me if you want to go, if there's a desire, and maybe something will get set up.


school's almost over. i don't have to go tomorrow if i don't want to, so methinks i shall stay home and sleep in. tomorrow night will find me working until 11 pm, wednesday morning will find me in math and english finals starting at 7 am, and finishing at 2 pm, and then working from 4 pm until 11 ish again.

but then i get some time off. woo.


nightmares. i keep having troubled dreams, though i don't know why. stress, mayhaps? the one two nights ago found a bum asking me if he could show me something (the bum i gave change to in portland, in fact.) i agreed, and as i peered over his shoulder to see what he was pointing at, he shoved me into a cage and beat me senseless. he then began a ritual of keeping me in that cage, beating me occasionally, depriving me of either food or water for great lengths of time, or depriving me of light. he would shove needles into my arm to drug me with various drugs with random effects. he hung a calendar on the wall and would change the date at weird intervals to keep me discombobulated, to keep me thinking on one hand that i had only been captive for a short time, and on the other that i had been held and tortured for an eternity. i remember one point, he brought in a bucket of mice and forced me to shove giant bamboo skewers through their anuses and out their mouths for barbecuing, that he said he would wait until they rotted to feed to me. i remember the screaming. i remember what the mice felt like as i forcibly shoved the skewer through their asses, furry and wiggling.

i remember that someone eventually came to my rescue, but at that point, i had become a vegetable. i could hear them speaking, could feel that i was on my side on rough carpet, but no longer cared enough to respond.


thank you SO much, dbaxdevilsfan for my first birthday card!! it meant so much to me!



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Mar. 13th, 2006 10:48 pm (UTC)
What a horrid nightmare!!!

Happy early birthday!!! :-)
Mar. 13th, 2006 10:49 pm (UTC)
You're very welcome sweetie! (now you know why Hallmark loves me...LOL)

I hope the nightmares stop soon. From what you're describing, it definitely sounds like the stress is getting to you. Enjoy your day off....don't so anything school related. See if that helps ease the nightmares.
Nov. 12th, 2006 12:40 am (UTC)
i had totally forgotten how i had gone through dealing with nightmares earlier this year, too. funny. maybe it is school related or something, the combination of stress and .. well, everything.

thank you :)
Mar. 13th, 2006 11:01 pm (UTC)
Eww, so, I was definitly eating when I read your entry. The part about the mice? Yeah, no longer hungry..eww..

I'd freak out if I woke up from a dream like that..
Mar. 14th, 2006 12:30 am (UTC)
I'd freak out if I DIDN'T wake up from a dream like that *shudder*

Aub--good luck on your exams and then take some well-deserved down-time. :)
Mar. 13th, 2006 11:35 pm (UTC)
how old are you gonna be?
Nov. 12th, 2006 12:42 am (UTC)
i'll be 32 next march, wee! for some reason, i keep thinking that i turned 32 this year, and that i'll be 33 next year.
Mar. 14th, 2006 01:43 am (UTC)
birthday in six days? woo!
birthday for me in eight days!
Mar. 14th, 2006 05:35 am (UTC)
is that guy sucking bubblegum out of the machine on your pic, or what?

Horrible nightmare! I'd die in my dream if I ever....dreamed that! That's scary? Though i chorttled when you said how the mice felt as you "forcibly shoved the skewer through their asses, furry and wiggling." That makes me laugh for some reason. Maybe it's the cuss word "asses." That's funny. And also I can imagine furry, wiggling things in my hand...eww. but still lol.

Nov. 12th, 2006 03:06 am (UTC)
Re: mmmkay
that's tom servo (the gumball machine looking puppet) along with his human that does his machinations and his voice, kevin murphy. awesomeness. from mystery science theatre 3000. definitely check out if you havent before.

it seems like i'm going through another phase where i keep having nightmares like this. maybe it's stress/school related? who knows.
Mar. 14th, 2006 06:16 am (UTC)
Hrm... I dunno I think I could take the obvious thinking route about your dreams and reverse it, that the mice represent you in a form of way. However I'll leave it at that, but I'll say this, even though you are feleing great and getting better I think the better you are the more you'll be cleaning house of old things until there is nothing left.

I don't know what to do about your birthday! I don't know if I can do anything! You see I'm sorta... saving up for something but gah! I gotta do something I just don't know what or when!

Nov. 12th, 2006 03:08 am (UTC)
never worry about birthday gifts or anything. not to sound like a giant vat of cheese, but you being my friend is gift enough.


and i totally forgot about a lot of these dreams i had had back towards the end of my winter quarter, and it seems like i'm going through another nightmare phase at the end of my autumn quarter. i wonder if they're related.
Nov. 12th, 2006 04:00 pm (UTC)
aww thank you *blush*
Nov. 12th, 2006 04:01 pm (UTC)
oh and I forgot to say that school is stressful!
Mar. 14th, 2006 05:04 pm (UTC)
Happy almost-birthday!

I've been having the strangest nightmares lately, but I guess that's understandable. I had one the other night where an evil genius who was sort of a cross between Dr. Frank-N-Furter and the narrator from the new "Reefer Madness" musical movie was trying to take over the town. At the big climax I remember confronting him and trying to cut his chest and neck up with a knife, but no blood came out and the deep cuts didn't bother him. Ewww...
Nov. 12th, 2006 03:09 am (UTC)
ewwwwwwwwww. i guess, in a way, it's sort of a relief to know that my subconscious isn't the only one that comes up with this stuff.
Mar. 15th, 2006 03:50 am (UTC)
o damn what a weird dream.
i sometimes have nightmares before exams
Mar. 15th, 2006 06:09 am (UTC)
That is... an odd dream, for sure. Moral of the story: don't give money to bums with cages.
Mar. 15th, 2006 01:26 pm (UTC)
oh and i meant to make a post awhile ago about a NOT nightmare i had - i dreameded of you and vivapink and baby aurora! i dreamed that i met yous at a picnic convention at a state fair.
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