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May. 4th, 2006

not much to report. i'm tired as all heck tonight, though i got almost a whole night's sleep last night.

got 98% on my psych test. would have gotten 100%, but dummy me, i just HAD to go back and change an answer, though i had it right the first time. guh.

still waiting for my brain book, a math quiz, my math essay, and my math homework to come back to see if i'm still clutching onto my 4.0 with an iron grip. got a letter in the mail today with an updated version of my award letter, with them saying that they really want to give me $3500 for the summer quarter, $3500 for the fall, and $3500 for the winter, including $1100 in work study. i'll peruse through their jobs and see what they have and if anything piques my interest.

thought i might decide to also major in english. something else that i'll knock around with my advisor next week.

requested 3 set days off of work: monday, tuesday, and thursday, so i may practice more with my band and keep some larger sense of relaxation... or something.

i was horridly nervous for first time band practice, as i hadn't practiced on my own nearly as much as i should. i ended up with a blister on my ring finger, but that's my own damn fault. i couldn't help grinning from ear to ear the whole time we were playing because of how WONDERFUL it felt to be singing and playing with someone again. i loved hearing our voices harmonizing, even if my guitar playing left something else to be desired.

as i was headed over on the subway to see scrumbles and 0vary, i discovered something amusing: here i am, 31 years old, and living the life that i would always daydream about living when i was a teenager: i'm a college student. i wander the city streets on public transit and have no cares for a car. i'm a musician in a band. i have a circle of wonderful, highly interesting friends. i'm not as healthy as i should be, but damn, life is good.



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May. 5th, 2006 05:44 am (UTC)
'should' is an evil, evil word. Don't let it taint your joy!!! You owe no one (not even yourself) perfect health, so be as healthy or unhealthy as you want to be and say 'fuck you' to anyone who tries to lay a 'should' on you.

and now that that irrepressible rant has run its course, YAY for you! *kisshugkiss* I'm glad you have a life you love. ♥
Jun. 6th, 2007 04:29 am (UTC)
Thank you so very much for this response. I need to remember to get rid of that word, as I've been using oh so very much lately!

My life is very different this year than it was last year, and in a way I'm sad and slightly mournful about it. I just need to do more inner focusing to realize what direction I would like to go in.

And I feel... so much better now that we're beginning to cross some communication bridges again. It was like I was missing a very important part of me.
May. 5th, 2006 03:04 pm (UTC)
Life is good.
May. 5th, 2006 03:30 pm (UTC)
i like bel's comment
whateva, you do what you want! You gotta great life. I'm majoring in English w/ an emphasis on Creative Writing. I'm going to UNT this fall. Life is good on this side too I think. I'm so glad you're feeling better with everything you've always wanted.
May. 5th, 2006 04:16 pm (UTC)

A clever, beautiful, and young woman such as yourself "shouldn't" waste her time with regrets or get mad at yourself over 2 points. So you second guessed yourself, so what? Millions people go through the same thing. It's still an A, right?

However, your dreams are in your face while most people sleep them away.

Who gives a crap about what critics say? Just do your best and the rest can just chill in a cold shower!

Jun. 6th, 2007 04:31 am (UTC)
Exactly. Although my life is drastically different now than it was a year ago, after doing some self rediscovery and figuring out where I want to go and which direction I want to take in life NOW, at least I can say that I've pursued my dream in life on many levels - majoring in music, playing in a band. Though it turned out to not quite be what I had thought, at least I will never look back and ask "what if...?"

I don't regret any of it.
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May. 6th, 2006 01:56 am (UTC)
Is that a tentacle coming by after the four statements in your icon?

Pepsi does sound, though.

Oh yea,

Go aukabob, Go!
May. 5th, 2006 07:04 pm (UTC)
Congrats again on the grants! :)

It's a good life, hon, so have fun living it up! :D
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