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May. 30th, 2006

In my math class, i sit at the front of the class for two reasons: one, i have AWFUL eyesight and my glasses are ancient, and two, in trying to sit in the back of the class, so far i have found that i end up surrounded by a bunch of hoodlums that have zero respect for the teacher and generally drown out my desire to learn. the teacher gives us pop quizzes, but allows us to use books and neighbors to get our answer. The only people in logical "reach" of me are two guys directly behind me: one that looks maybe twenty, the other approximately forty. All quarter long, i have done my damnedest to be cool to them and to help them with their math and work with them as a group, as -not to sound egotistical- i've been easily flying through the class and wanted to help how i could. i've tried to start conversations with them, and just get STARED at blankly in return. whenever i had a question, i.e. what homework i missed, they would constantly retort only in the least amount of words humanly possible to reply. fine, what the freak ever. i'm not there to make friends or pick me up some mens, i'm there for an education.

right before class started, everyone is asking everyone else how their weekend was. i inwardly sighed a teensy bit, thinking "no one in my entire math class cares how MY weekend went..." we get a pop quiz today, and i start diligently going through the problems. i get to #14, and notice a twist to the problem and say "ooh, tricky!" Professor Kay says "ooh, yes, number 14!" I then hear behind me in barely muted whispers:

one: what? she's already on #14?!?
other: pfft. i'll bet anything she gets at least half of them wrong, since she's going through them so fast.
one: no doubt. at least.
-a guy on the other side of the room gets up and turns his quiz in and leaves-
one: like that guy - no one can do math problems that fast.

right as they finished talking, Kay gives me back my homework and the last test, both with 100% written in giant red pen at the top. i scootched both over so that they could easily see from behind me. i also made a slight big show of pulling out the paper that she gave us to keep track of our scores and tallying everything up. i notice that i've only missed a total of six problems all quarter, in approximately fifteen giant assignments, tests, and quizzes (five of them being on our first giant giant test, due to idiotic math).

yanno. if you jerkponies would have even SLIGHTLY returned my charitable offer to be chums this quarter, i might be helping your sorry asses with your quiz right now. instead? i'm keeping my knowledge to myself. i shall sail right out of the class and right into the next one with a delicious 4.0, while you scritch your heads and wonder why you got 2+2 wrong and fight for that C.


and naturally, i come up with all sorts of come backs AFTER the fact.


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May. 31st, 2006 06:39 am (UTC)
It's funny that my final math class, I actually was in the top percentile for the class..but....I just can't shake that "I'm stupid" feeling. I feel some things will never go away :(
Jun. 7th, 2007 11:11 pm (UTC)
Re: :)
It's really sad how that works, huh. That's totally how I felt in ALL my music classes.

It's amazing how we can see results for ourselves, but either something that we experienced first hand earlier in life, or one thing that one person said to us ages ago seems to supercede any logical knowledge to the contrary.
Jun. 8th, 2007 11:33 pm (UTC)
Re: :)
That is exactly it.
And sometimes when I get so hard on myself, I think nothing is ever going to change. Just when I hit this groove of "I think I can do this" I start doubting myself again and then it goes from bad to worse. Very hard getting out of that cycle once you fall into it.

They actually showed though that the people who thought they were competent or did well actually did worse than those who doubted themselves. I think imnotbob gave me an interesting link regarding this, but I can't recall where t is.
May. 31st, 2006 09:25 am (UTC)
it makes sense now. Well plus I don't have a screaming/babbling infant to keep track of.

Also, isn't 2+2=5 for extremly large values of 2? Or a sufficiently subjugated populace.
May. 31st, 2006 09:39 am (UTC)
ha that's awesome, you're awesome. you're so smart, i wisht i was as smart as you, I had so much trouble with my math. :)
May. 31st, 2006 11:12 am (UTC)
Duuuuuuuude, I so know what you mean... I've been so fed up with people in class thinking because they have problems, EVERYONE has problems - or trying to get me to do their work for them.

Just keep cruising on ahead, maintaining that 4.0 - some cliche somewhere said, "The best revenge is living well" ;)
Jun. 7th, 2007 11:13 pm (UTC)
That IS the best revenge, thankyouverymuch.

As I thought of my ex from five years ago that left me for another woman. Here I am, totally happy and mostly independent (roommate living aside), and he's probably now 34 or 35, still losing his hair, part time bartendering, and living with his mother.

Ah, yes.
Jun. 7th, 2007 11:15 pm (UTC)
And I dealt so much with people trying to get me to do their work for them in high school. I was MASSIVELY shy, so didn't know how to interact with people, so all they knew about me was that I was quiet and smart. I so hated that feeling.

And in talking to coworker Yancey, he has dealt with a lot of that from his lab partners in school: he works his ASS off for the project, and they pretty much end up pushing it all off on him. I'm thankful that I haven't been to a point in college yet where I have to rely on others for success, as I prefer to work alone on everything.
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Jun. 7th, 2007 11:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you! And to think that I feared math so durned much. If they would have allowed me to learn it chronologically in high school instead of just putting me straight into AlgebraII because I was "too bright", then it wouldn't have took me so long to get where I am today.
May. 31st, 2006 01:06 pm (UTC)
Go aub! You put those snot nosed punks in their place. Yes, people can be fast at math! They are just jealous.

Jun. 7th, 2007 11:17 pm (UTC)
SO happy that I'm done with math, other than two statistics classes I have to take sometime in the future, though I hear those are EASY.

I wonder where THEY are? ^_^
May. 31st, 2006 01:10 pm (UTC)
You rock! Suits those morons well for being jerks!
I'm quite good at math myself, but racing through most of my last math class in about a month due to sickness and other fun things I got sick of it.
Jun. 7th, 2007 11:18 pm (UTC)
Oh yes. I had to work my way through a complete Algebra book to get my high school diploma - thee last thing I had to do before getting the stupid thing. That was ALL I had to do all day in my high school diploma class in job corps, so it got real old VERY quick. I hate using my brain that way, lolz.
May. 31st, 2006 01:23 pm (UTC)
I have always and will always sit in the front. It's commom knowledge that's where ALL the smart people are.. ;)
May. 31st, 2006 02:08 pm (UTC)
that was the most appropriate "neener" I've ever heard. :)
May. 31st, 2006 02:09 pm (UTC)
I won't study with people because it's embarrassing how bad I am at math, and I hold study groups back. It's not snobbery on my part, it's shame.
Jun. 7th, 2007 11:21 pm (UTC)
I just hate studying with other groups, because I'm SOOOOO FREAKING SOCIALLY AWKWARD. I also get irritated if I'm grouped with people that don't want to participate or do their share, or that keep side tracking us.

If I could have my way, I would be able to go through all my college classes only having to rely on ME, but I know that the further I get into labs and stuff, I'll have to group up with others, ugh.
May. 31st, 2006 04:42 pm (UTC)
wow, that text you sent to me yesterday TOTALLY makes sense, now!

I feel your pain, about the whole 'come backs' thing. I am only quick witted with Jason, and then it's awful and I wish I could take it back.

Those guys are jerks! At least you know, in that situation, you don't actually have to worry about revenge - they've done it all on their own.
Jun. 7th, 2007 11:22 pm (UTC)
Absolutely. I just feel totally ecstatic and justified and HAPPY that my ultimate payback for their rudeness all through the class was that they ended up suffering for it in the long run.

Kharma is a beautiful thing at times.
May. 31st, 2006 05:32 pm (UTC)
Hehe....I've done the same thing on a few occasions. People think that just because they don't get something, no one else should either....and that math shouldn't be done quickly.

Jun. 7th, 2007 11:23 pm (UTC)
And that if they ARE getting something, that they must obviously exaggerating their knowledge of it, or blowing someone to get the good grades. ;)
Jun. 1st, 2006 02:02 pm (UTC)
Just more proof that you kick butt, unfortunately some cant recgonize this and will try to detract from it as much as they can.

but don't let that stop you!

Jun. 7th, 2007 11:24 pm (UTC)
Absolutely won't. I just hate that they totally made me feel the entire quarter that I was back in high school, but it ended up biting them in the ass at the end.

Good thing about taking forever to reply to things: I totally forgot that this even happened.

Thank doodness for livejournal.
Jun. 8th, 2007 03:34 am (UTC)
You know sometimes I think journals are suppsoed to be little sticky noties about life that you end up reading later and smiling in your great wisdome and triumph of the trivial problems of the past. Though I wonder if tht only works like the wornderful thoughts of love you usually only find in the movies.
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