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Dec. 2nd, 2006

i was SO ANGRY with faetal in my dream last night. i dreamed that the four of us (including daniel and jessie) were out on the town. jess and daniel called me over- "we have someone we want you to meet!" it was a good looking jock-ish sort of guy - good looking but not anyone i would be attracted to IRL (due to .. issues... i don't really trust good looking men.) but jess and daniel were OH SO EXCITED about introducing him to me, so i decided to give him a chance. we all started hanging out different places around town together, and the guy and i got along quite well. i was just getting a thrill of flirting with someone and having them flirt back, when andrea started flirting with him harder. i refused to throw myself at the man,and instead watched her and him start getting along even better than we had and go off to do activities around town on their own. the logical part of me said that it obviously wasn't meant to be, and that i wouldn't want a man who would be just as romantically interested in any of my female friends, but it still hurt. throughout my real life, i've had many female friends (half of them married) that would flirt with any guy that i would even remotely show interest in, so when i liked someone, i would have to put them up to the "carmen test" or the "tiffany test", etc. to have this happen again through one of my very dearest MARRIED friends cut deep, and i went to talk to my lifelong friend joe, who gave me some really great advice that i of course cannot remember upon waking. i just remember shouting at him that i've been single so long, and that i at least deserved a CHANCE. and then i walked into an artsy coffee shop and spent a day (literally, in my dream) ordering coffee and agonizing over my decision on what to drink, and then finding a bathroom, and then using the grossest bathroom ever. the stall doors were so close to where you had to sit that you couldn't hover - the second you closed the door, it would plop you down on the seat. the seat was a metal grate over a stinking cesspool. the owner of the bathroom was too cheap to get toilet paper, and instead gave you an oily fluffy substance to wipe with. the lights were dim and kept flickering.

and now, the responses to the poll!

wanderlustlover - inner peace. i think that is one of the grand searches in life. i don't care if i make $2 an hour shucking clams or a million dollars an hour as a pro ball player - as long as i'm peaceful within.

nasagrl - only if it wears a tutu.

runesf - of course not. i don't consider myself, though i've done the same.

laughing_piggy - unfortunately fifteen on father's day, to a man who spoke no english. not one of my crowning moments in life.

nemo_wistar - you are my new superhero.

talkingpotato - dunno. maybe it's a spiritual thing. the color speaks to me, as well.

faetal - me too, darlin. i keep wondering if i'm swallowing a ton of air whenever i snarf my food. or am stressed.

greenminions - you sure you want to get yourself into that sort of predicament? she looks adorable, but she's quite vicious.

bentnails - the only things i can actually do with my left hand is type, paint my right hand's nails (back in the days i actually did my nails), sort of write, and any other chore where my left-hand is a helper to the right. i plan on one day maybe playing two keyboards? oooOOOOoo.

ancient_exile - okay, wummun. you hath piqued my interest.

coupesetique - um... i really don't know. no one has piqued me in quite awhile that way. could it be an imaginary character?

boigrrl1der - depends upon the mood. sometimes i like a weiner, sometimes i like a slab of beef.

baryon - legalizing certain drugs, prostitution, and abortion once and for all.

hottergirl01 - you go here to do it, but you have a paid account.

w_b_yeats - chemistry, chemistry, chemistry. i would like to respond that i make my decisions on the over all quality of the personality and how it meshes with mine, but that's not how it has worked in the past. granted, i haven't dated in over five years now, so maybe that would change now? a sense of humor is extremely important, as well as a very high respect for others. as stated above, i don't go for looks at all (i have been told my last few were plain at best), though there has to be an attraction there. i find myself attracted to the overall package, including personality and mind. (actually those above others.) i respect those that have a light-hearted look on life and don't take things too seriously, though they are going through motions to better themselves, not necessarily schooling, but inner paths, etc. respect for others is a great thing, too. i could never fully respect someone who is nice to my face, but is a total jerk to the waitress or cashier, and bad mouths people as soon as their backs are turned. did that cover it?

operatic - yanno? no clue. i believe he's free now, but i haven't been around to find out. bad keyboardist.

evil_cupcake - i was going to reply that i don't decorate, but then remembered that i'm still planning on ripping my bedroom apart and building a music nook for myself to practice and focus on music. i got as far as buying the desk and getting it home and sort of cleaning my room, but that's the furthest i've gotten. maybe next week when i have some time off and am hanging around the house waiting to go anywhere with my brother on his birthday.



any questions?

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faetal
Dec. 2nd, 2006 07:39 pm (UTC)
damnit I'm SORRY if I flirt with your dream men, you see..I never leave the house so I must go out and flirt in dream land, its the only time I could be social.

at least Andrea in YOUR dreams was doing something remotely fun, because Andrea in MY dreams was having her skin removed by an electric grinder by her jackasss step father, and failing to save lives in communist Vancouver.
bigstusexy
Dec. 2nd, 2006 11:52 pm (UTC)
(due to .. issues... i don't really trust good looking men.) Horah I'm trust worthy :)

[info]w_b_yeats - chemistry, chemistry, chemistry. i would like to respond that i make my decisions on the over all quality of the personality and how it meshes with mine, but that's not how it has worked in the past. granted, i haven't dated in over five years now, so maybe that would change now? a sense of humor is extremely important, as well as a very high respect for others. as stated above, i don't go for looks at all (i have been told my last few were plain at best), though there has to be an attraction there. i find myself attracted to the overall package, including personality and mind. (actually those above others.) i respect those that have a light-hearted look on life and don't take things too seriously, though they are going through motions to better themselves, not necessarily schooling, but inner paths, etc. respect for others is a great thing, too. i could never fully respect someone who is nice to my face, but is a total jerk to the waitress or cashier, and bad mouths people as soon as their backs are turned. did that cover it?

I've have so many things to say about this. I don't think most people do this, I don't think that they truely sit down and think about just what they want and how it would work., I think its a great thing that more people need to do. More to say but I think I'm done now.
talkingpotato
Dec. 3rd, 2006 04:24 am (UTC)
awww I'm sorry about your dream. The same thing would happen to me with my girl friends and eventually I stopped trying.
THen old men started hitting on me at work and now I'm just trying to avoid being looked at LOL
It's gone from "oh I hope I get guys to notice me" to "please don't let that old creepo notice me.." LOL
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