and i was out of there by 230. the whole day ahead.
the whole family thing got me thinking. we were sitting there during dinner, peyton and i, next to his friend rob, his wife, their three kids, and both of robs parents. after Grace was said, with everyone holding hands, and the home made hominy salad was being passed around and the homemade stuffing was yanked from the stove (not of that boxed stuff..), it hit me:
This is what 'normal' families do.
okay, granted that this day and age, 'normal' consists of divorced parents that - in a GOOD situation - take turns swapping the kids for the holidays.
i dunno. it's difficult to put everything into words, what i'm feeling. having parents that divorced when i was 9 months old (because my mother had decided to have me), and seeing another failed marriage, and other failed long term relationships, and myself never have anything last more than 2 months...it's completely foreign and ... just plain WEIRD, sitting in a room with ORIGINAL parents that are still married after 38 years.
i guess that between the dreams that i've been having and witnessing things like that, it's helping me to get out of my 'commitment shell' and start actually dismissing the ideas that marriage just cannot work, and that i certainly am not made for it.
i am going to marry. maybe not for another few years, but it will happen. i just know that he's going to be an oddball like i am, most likely someone, such as my self, that has never really had a true long term relationship, so that he and i can traverse this whole new alien world together.